Half Way Point (chemo stage)

Last week was amazing. I felt great, I could taste food and drink, and I even got back to my Pilates class. It is such a relief to feel somewhat normal for a week. The first two weeks after a chemotherapy treatment are the worst of the worst but I know I will feel better the third week. I still have no appetite so I just force feed myself all week so I could get my weight back up. 

So yesterday was my third treatment, also known as half way done!!! Everything went as planned and after meeting with my doctors we decided to just start pre-medicating so hopefully I would get so sick like last time. Goal is to stay hydrated. 

Today was my oldest daughters first day of Kindergarten so it was a BIG day. Super exciting stuff happening in the Roberts house this week. My youngest is still at her preschool so nothing new for her. 


I looking forward to October 18th, my last day of chemotherapy. Finally I am seeing an end to all this madness. My surgery has been scheduled for November 15th and then the hard part is done. Other good news, my taste buds should be back in full effect by Thanksgiving. Best time of the year. Now let’s just pray that I can get through the next two weeks without going under 120lbs and no major complications. 

I Will Survive

I’ve survived!  Well, so far.  It’s still early in the game.  I have a 3-year-old and a 20 month old and they haven’t killed me yet. We are finally getting out of the stage where “you can never leave the room, you always have to be within 3 feet of your kids” phase. That is a phase isn’t it? They are playing together, fighting together, and crying together, sounds perfect to me. The amazing thing about having two girls is that they will always be best friends. Watching them interact now is just preparing me for the future I think. Who am I kidding, they won’t always be best friends but a mother can dream right. Hell, my sister and I hated each other until we were in our twenties but we were also 5 years apart.

No smiling.

My youngest has started talking somewhat in english and the oldest can’t stop talking unless a stranger walks into the room.  It is amazing how young children start to talk back to you.  I would have thought I had a couple more years.  We have one potty trained and I’m working on the second as we speak. I will have her trained by her 2nd Birthday in July! Fact. As I sit here watching Frozen for the 100th time and they are perfectly content sitting in their chairs watching it by themselves. Besides the occasional request for food, they stay put.

I love being a mom.  I love being a mom.  I love being a mom.  I have to say that to myself a lot.  It’s stressful but not like “work stressful”, it’s an easier kind of stressful.  Hell, feed them, love them, teach them, clean them.  Pretty much sums it up.  If I ever feel like I’m doing it wrong or that I’m not a good mom, I just was an episode of Teen Mom 2!!!  After an episode of that I am Mom of the Year.

Summer Bucket List

I was introduced to The Happy Family Movement by my new favorite photographer, Nicole Renee. Even with our busy schedule I think we can do this summer. So here goes, Our Summer Bucket List:

1. Royal’s Baseball Game with the children. We have taken Maggie in the past but the little one has yet to see the Royals lose in person.

Maggie's 1st Royals Game
Maggie’s 1st Royals Game

2. Kansas City Zoo. Took Maggie last year and she had a blast.

Kansas City Zoo
Kansas City Zoo

3. Lunch on The Plaza without children. I love dining and day drinking.

4. Day on the Lake (on a boat). I'[m still a little to over protective to take the girls to the lake house but we can take them on the boat at Wyandotte County Lake.

5. T Bones Baseball game with the family. We are right down the street from the stadium and they have a great playground for the kids. No excuse not to go.

6. Outdoor Concert. I think the last outdoor concert I attended was Cross Canadian Ragweed in 2009. Hell, that was the last concert I think I went to. I used to be cool.

7. Deanna Rose Farm. It would be perfect for a toddler.

Maggie at Deanna Rose Memorial Day 2013
Maggie at Deanna Rose Memorial Day 2013

8. Family Portrait Session by Nicole Renee. we took portraits when Reese was about 3 months old but that was it. A family photo session is much-needed.

Family Portrait Fall 2012
Family Portrait Fall 2012

9. Watch a fireworks show. This task shouldn’t be too hard since my family is in the fireworks business.

10. Build a sandcastle with the kids. We are taking a family vacation to Florida in August and we are right on the beach. Maggie would love to build a giant sandcastle and then she will proceed to knock it down.

11. Catch lightning bugs. This just screams summer to me.

12. Date night. Not just dinner at Yardhouse on a Tuesday. A dress up dinner at a romantic restaurant is my favorite. Nice wine, great food, and dessert!

13. Wyandotte County Fair. Another summer favorite for kids! I won’t let Maggie on the rides but at least she can run around. I know, I’m no fun.

14. Royals Game WITHOUT children. Nothing better than a night at the stadium with a good group of friends.

15. Play in the sprinkler. The kids are already little fishes in the pool, they will love the sprinkler.



Sleeping Beauty

My family is now complete.  I have a wonderful husband and two of the sweetest little girls (for now) in the entire world.  Everyone always asks when we are going to try for another one and I have to politely answer that we are done.  What I want to say is not nearly as nice.  Kids are a TON of money, daycare is a TON of money, and quite frankly the thought of being pregnant again makes be ill.

Reese is 4 months old and Maggie is turning 2 years old in less than a week!  Time flies when you have kids.  I am proud to say that I have mastered the art of getting my children to sleep through the night starting at young age.  I do believe that if my children didn’t sleep through the night I would be a different person entirely.  We prepared ourselves for a baby that cried all the time and didn’t sleep because Maggie was the easiest child I had ever experienced or even heard of.  Reese is a complete dream.  I think she is even a better baby that Maggie was.  Hears my secret to getting a newborn to sleep through the night.  Stack their feedings.  Feed at 6pm then again at 8pm then again at 10pm.  If the baby is asleep wake them up.  By staking the feedings you are filling those little bellies enough that after a week or two of doing this they will not wake up for those middle of the night feedings.  I still remember both the nights that the girls first sleep through the night.  Maggie was 9 weeks and I think I woke up 5 times to check the monitor to see if she was okay.  I believe I also got out of bed to go check on her.  Reese was 10 weeks old and it was my husbands night to get up with her at 3am to feed and put her back to bed.  She was like clockwork, always up at 3am, drank 4 ounces, then right back to sleep.  I woke up at 6am and realized that my husband had never gotten up with her, and the first thing that came to mind was,”asshole got to sleep the whole night, it was his turn”.  Wife of the Year.

Kisses from Maggie

Having two little girls is the best.  Reese is just starting to do more things and I can’t wait to see the girls play together in the future.  Exciting times for our family still to come and I’m so excited.

Welcome to the Bed Rest Show

Well, after three days in the hospital I am finally home.  Bed rest.  With this pregnancy I knew there was a chance of bed rest because I was diagnosed with placenta previa early on.  I know the risks with the condition but it has never worried me like it might most people so I thought we’d be in the clear.  So we are 34 weeks along and we have a c-section scheduled for 37 weeks at this point.  Hopefully this baby cooks a little bit longer before making her appearance.

The bed rest part is going to be very difficult for me because of several factors.  First of all, I have a very active 19 month old who does not understand why I can’t pick her up.  This breaks my heart more than anything.  Second, I still have so much to do around the house before baby #2 makes her debut. I should just hire a maid.  And why did I make the very smart decision to drop my supplemental insurance after I had Maggie? Stupid, stupid, stupid.  For some reason I just thought all of my pregnancies would be perfect like the first one.  How wrong was I?  As I sit here in my bed I just keeping thinking of all the things I should be doing, laundry, vacuuming, dusting, the list can really go on and on.  The temptation to get in my car go shopping is just driving me crazy.

Playing in the bounce house. Very active these days.

So tomorrow if July 4th and my husband will be home to take care of Maggie and take her to all the fun festivities.  I will be at home trying to search for the end of the internet. I might have to break the rules that night and go outside and sit in the driveway and shoot some fireworks off with my family.  It’s still “resting” if I’m sitting in a chair right?  I’m thinking of making up my own rules for bed rest.

Maggie July 4th, 2011 (8 months)

Shortly after finding out I had placenta previa, my doctor’s office called to inform me that my doctor had just resigned and wanted to know who I wanted to switch too.  Seriously.  I loved my doctor. She made everything so easy to understand, told me how it was going to be (in a good way), and just understood my personality. I was crushed.  As of today, still no word on where she will be practicing.  I started seeing a new doctor in the practice and she is super nice but there is something missing.  I know that she is perfectly capable of doing her job but I feel like I need to question everything she tells me.  So I started seeing a specialist to keep an eye on my placenta and the growth of my baby.  The specialist has answered all my questions and then some.  I feel like the specialist think I’m fine and my doctor wants to go ahead and get the baby out as soon as possible.  Do I really question someone who has a medical degree and years of experience?  Do people really do that?

More posts to come as long as I’m on bed rest.  Act excited.