Nothing will be easy

The chemo struggle is real. Eff me. Things did not go well after my second round of chemo to put it lightly. I continued to have the bone pain, chemo mouth, and just general crapiness. What I didn’t expect this round was the severe cramping and abdominal pain. At one point I thought about going to the ER but I was worried that they would just think I was a drug seeker. It hurt that bad. Of course I was In touch with my fabulous team of nurses at the KU Cancer Center, they wanted to do do stool studies before they did anything else. Because I work in the gastrointestinal field I knew that they were checking for c diff, a infection that is common with chemotherapy patients. Just google c diff and trust me, you don’t want this. I was very lucky and was clear! So Wednesday I went in for IV fluids and a tiny amount of morphine and instantly felt better. Today is day nine post chemo and I finally feel semi-normal. 

In other news, my genetic test results came in.  Both my mother and sister were tested and they were negative. My lovely panel came back positive for the ATM gene which is associated with in an increased risk to develop cancer. For women who carry an ATM mutation, the lifetime risk of breast cancer seems to be 2-5 times higher than the general population risk, with perhaps a greater magnitude of risk before age 50 and then a relatively smaller increase in risk after that. So at this point, they think I inherited this ATM gene from my father. The cancer is maternal on my side of the family and no paternal family history. So that doesn’t answer anything and very inconsistent with the breast cancer in my family. So now we pray hard that my little girls are safe from this evil thing called cancer. 

Chemo Mouth

Grr. Imagine all your taste buds float away to cancer hell and you are stuck with everything tasting like cardboard. Oh, that includes water. Yep. Sucks. So I decided that I’m going to just try to get through the next couple months without losing another 20 pounds and then binge out on my favorite food. Most chemo patients suggest avoiding your favorite foods during the chemo process so they aren’t a turn off after you get your taste buds back. 

First stop, Chicago. If I could eat in any city for the rest of my life it would be this place. The Chicago Pizza and Oven Grinder is my number one go to place. It holds a special place in my heart as well, my husband proposed to me there. 

Heaven on a plate. They also have an amazing salad, dressing, and flatbread. I will gain ten pounds that night at dinner. I can already taste it. There is also a burger place that I have to find again, it was years ago. The Art of Pizza is always a good spot. There is Francesca’s, are they still good? Anyway, I am also excited to try s good steak house. Any Chicago restaurant suggestions would be appreciated. 

I’m loving the Kansas City food scene too. My favorite place is Osteria Il Centro and that will be my very first stop on list. 
If you haven’t been then you are missing out. Best place in Kansas City. Fact. Then there is JJ’s on the plaza, Strouds Northland, Pig Witch, Garozzo’s, Bristol, and 715 in Lawrence. 

I make this list to look forward to something. I miss food tasting like food. I miss carbs. I miss wine. We will be together soon again.